It's weird.

I just finished watching Adventureland, and it's left me in somewhat of a depressed mood. Along with not leaving the house today, the two make a lethal combination. Adventureland had Ryan Reynolds in it and his character was.....a poser, I guess that's the best word for it. But this movie has left me in a mood. Right now I have no job, but want to have one. I almost got a job but couldn't because of my eyes. The day i was going to apply was the day i got that infection. Right now it feels like the world is against me. I want a job but at the same time don't know what will happen if i get a job. Will I become a mindless drone catering to the rise and fall of the business cycle of corporate America? Will i just go through the cycle of just working and never getting anywhere? The present always keeps me in a state of confusion i think. And the future is something to hope and want and keep as a goal. My future is uncertain at this point. I'm stuck at a crossroads. I don't know what exactly to do. And i can't help feeling as if I wouldn't feel as bad if i just had someone to hold close and talk to. Someone who i could talk to on the phone. I hate talking on the phone. But i would love it for just one person to make me look forward to it. I miss being in a relationship. I've always been told i'm a good boyfriend. But, no one ever wants to date me. Women are strange creatures. I don't think anyone will ever understand them. I know i won't. Well, i suppose that's the end of my rant.